Questions

A friend here at college introduced me to these ten questions that really got me thinking. So, i'll be posting a new question each week (or so), give my answer, and ask for yours as well. I think they're really interesting.

1. What is your favorite word?

At the start, this question seemed up my ally. I love literature and words and English, and this is just so interesting to think about. Sometimes English can be so limiting though.. and it gets harder and harder to find just the right word. I'm sure you've all had those moments when you're searching and searching for the right word, and then the aha! when you finally find it. That is so satisfying, isn't it? But, off the top of my head, it's hard for me to think of one word that just strikes the right chord. I have to think for a bit... I'm going to make a list....

Cadence
Coherence
Simplicity
However
Breathe
Catalyst
Cozy
Nonchalant
Superfluous


Those are my favorites right now. What are your's?

Some Things Are Meant To Be

Relay

Tonight's Relay for Life.

It's going to be hard for me, because last year's relay was the last time  I got to spend an extended period of time with Emma. One of my biggest annoyances is that I couldn't stay the whole night last ear. I had SATs or something in the morning. Which makes no sense, but there was something the next day I had to go to. ><

Hopefully my friends, old and new, will keep me going this year.

I wanted to name our team Following Fabulous. We picked a different name, but that is my own personal team name for us. For the group of people who are dedicating to following fabulous and moving forward. That's most important. Moving forward; not moving on. We'll never move on but we will move forward following fabulous where ever we go.

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Inheriting

The story is not really mine to tell, but I'll tell it anyway. This is the way it goes:
Back in 2009, Lindsey and Emma used to joke with each other; Lindsey wanted bigger boobs, and Emma always said "Take mine!" Now, if you've known Lindsey for awhile (and have been hanging out with her friends who notice things like this) you might have noticed, like we all did, that Lindsey's boobs grew like crazy over the summer. Inheritance? Maybe so.

I think I got a similar strange gift. Hats.

I can't get enough of them! Since the summer, my hat collection has quadrupled. I had one hat before...which I never even wore. Now I boast 5 hats. =] I just bought this floppy pink one yesterday, I was so excited! Emma gave me her hat craze, I really can't get enough of them!

Villanelle

I wrote this villanelle for AP Lit.






Sail off to sleep.
Remember me as you close your eyes,
and for this moment do not weep.

In your memories closely keep
all that we’ve done, our loves, our lies,
now sail off to sleep.

Softly now the winds fall and sweep
to hush your fears and calm your cries
and for this moment do not weep.

All I’ve been, your heart will reap,
through all death’s faint disguise
so sail off to sleep.

The night holds your dreams; let your heart leap,
Let rest give rise
And for this moment do not weep.

No longer lost; carry on, your soul is deep.
Stay strong, my love, withstand my goodbyes.
Sail off to sleep,
and for this moment do not weep. 

STUFFF

SO much stuff to do in the next few weeks. The show is tonight and tomorrow, so that took up my entire week. Next week i'm revisitng colleges because I STILL don't know what i'm doing next year. I'm missing more than half the week on that. AP tests are in 2 weeks, I have 2 choir concerts, an English poetry test, a huge English paper, 2 more art pieces and the Day of sSilence to plan. And I don't have a date to prom. AND This is in the next two weeks. Mostly next week. AH.

Rememory

I'm sitting in the Wright House computer lab. It's the first time I've been in this lab since last year. I remember last year I was always in this room period 8 because I had Humanities and Mr. Theisen took us to this room. Emma was also often here period 8 because she had a free. We used to sit next to eachother and she would distract me from my work and we would tease Mr. Theisen and it would be all good.

Long Relationship Musings

I'm sitting here "babysitting," hence online now that the kids are asleep and I've already cleaned up.

I'm contemplating my relationships. Don't read this if you're not interested in this. It might get weird.

So I'm thinking about it. And i've made a list. A flat out list of relationships i've had. From year and a half commitments to one day oops-es and minute-long flings. I might make it easier by going in order, but it's likely i'll misplace one or two, so bear with me.

-C (Boyfriend -3 months)
-J (Boyfriend -4? months)
-J(2) (In-the-closet Girlfriend - uhh..5 months?)
-J(3) (Boyfriend -1 month)
-M (Boyfriend -1 Day)
-J(4) (Hookup -1 month)
-L (Girlfriend - 1 year, 4 months)
-E (Hookup)
-E(2) (Hookup)

Now I'm almost positive there are more people on this list. I just have terrible long-term memory. Maybe someone can refresh my memory if I forgot anything. Oh, and another girl in thrown in there around the J(3) area i think. But I think she'd rather not be mentioned. These are the ones I actually consider relationships. There are honestly other people i've just kissed, but don't expect me to try to remember all that.

I call each of these "relationships" although each is very distinct. My J(3) experience is perhaps eons away from what happened with L for example. They all have made me see a different part of myself. Each helped me grow in some way. Which is what should happen. Of course I have other things that I deem "relationships." I have so many wonderful relationships with my friends, they're just not included on this list for some obvious differences.

I'm a little worried moving forward. As much as each relationship has shown me something about myself, they've also revealed some dangerous patterns. I fall for the people who sometimes aren't the best for me. I'm not referring to any specific relationship, but sometimes things can turn ugly. Sometimes I can get obsessive.  To tell the truth, it's hard for me to admit that people are leaving my life. I pour my heart and soul into these relationships. I truly and deeply love. When I get stressed or nervous, I say things that just aren't true and scare people away.

I get panic attacks, did you ever know that? Perhaps another blog post is in order. But the short form is this. They started in the transition after my relationship with J(3). It was so scary. I've learned how to control them better, but sometimes they get back. They come back when i deal with rocky relationships. Wow, i really hope no potential significant other reads this, because I look like a nutcase. I'm really not this bad, promise.

One thing you'll notice is that there's guys in there. Yes, MEN! Well, more often than not they were boys. Maybe one day years from now i'll look back on those male-filled days (no pun intended) with nostalgia. Right now? I'm more than happy to just get on with it.

The only reason i'm writing this so long is because there's nothing better to do in this house. Sure I could watch TV or do my hw. But that's not quite as fun.

One other thing i've noticed, and i've told a couple of people this before, is that i've never been in a relationship with a girl that hasn't been closeted, or long-distance. I mean, i've never found someone here that I can just be with out in the open. I'd like that, but it sure would open up a new can of worms. I haven't really felt much persecution for my sexuality yet, and i'm sure thats a part of it. Can you imagine the looks on my classmates faces if I walked hand in hand with a woman on the way to class. Or worse, a kiss on the cheek!

This brings me to something sort of related. It's when I first met E (the one on the list, not the drug). I had heard rumors about her. This was freshman year. I was in awe of this girl, I heard rumors that she-kissed a girl! -gasp!- She was sitting there proud in my english class. And yes, she was dating another girl. I was in awe of her the moment i met her.

She got shit for that. Fuck them all. God fucking fuck them all to hell.

Random

Didja ever play those games when you are in a group of people that you don't know, for some sort of event, and you have to go around saying one interesting fact about yourself? I find myself in that situation a lot, and I can never ever think of anything interesting to say. My mind blanks. I haven't been hit by lighting, I never met anyone famous. I figure I can't be THAT boring. So I decided to start a list. You'll get a random fact about me once in awhile on this page, so I can add to my list of things to say that are interesting about me. Since I'm actually met with a similar mind blurt right now, i'll start with something not-so-interesting, but something I noticed.


I seem to like really happy-sounding sad songs. Like, Kimya Dawson and Yellowcard. They have really upbeat-sounding songs but in the end they're actually kinda sad.

Some of my FAVORITE songs:
Kimya Dawson
More Kimya

Yellowcard

And with the acceptance come the rejections.

My college Score Card:

Accepted:
Mount Holyoke
Clark
UConn

Rejected:
Vassar
Wesleyan

Waiting on:
Tufts
Brown
Connecticut College

Here's when the clock really starts to click.

More college stuff

Just one new update, I got into Mount Holyoke. It's one of my top choice schools, so I'm really happy about that. Now i'm just waiting on 5 more!

On a random note, I've been feeling oddly happy for the last few days. It's really weird because I never really feel happy for a sustained period. Do you know what I mean? I'm not seriously depressed, but i'm just normal, indifferent, most of the time. Sometimes I get happy and sometimes I get sad. I've been just happy. It might have something to do with getting into Mount Holyoke, being on schedule in AP art, doing well in AP Physics, having a big design element in the Music Man, and having a potential female date to prom. =] I like this feeling.

3/14/10

Pi Day, but I only just remembered that a few hours ago.
Big storm last night. I could probably tell you lots of stories of fallen trees, but they all sound the same as the rest. Lots of power cut. Ours was out last night, but I wasn't here for it. I was driving home in it. O.O

The second day of TC was just as amazing if not better than the second. Each day had its epic awesome points. Still though, i'm a little ticked at the fact that I had absolutely no game. I NEVER get nervous talking to people, but god you should have seen me hiding behind a pillar for about 10 minutes trying to get up the nerve to approach this one girl before running off utterly terrified. It was as if I had reverted to 3rd grade follies. Gosh. It was more than a little pathetic. I believe I looked too straight. XD Is that imaginable? Not looking gay enough? There were a bunch of straight girls there so I'm guessing I was assumed to be one of them. I'll get a sign next year. (I'm totally going next year, college far away or not)

Today was also project runway. It was also really fun, and I'll put the video up on facebook later if i can. The best part was having my hair and makeup done. It was done for free by Total Look ( i looked at prices later at it would have been over $100 each girl) I loved my style, and my stylist was so sweet. The worst part was 20 minutes before the show when I found out that the store I was modeling for had sold the outfit I was fitted for, so all my planning for one look had to be thrown out and changed for the replacement outfit they gave me. I didn't like it as much, but I rocked it. That's showbiz. or model-biz. It works either way.

do you realize you posted this on the ap lit blog?

i did not. thank you.

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True Colors

Today I went to day 1 of the True Colors Conference. It was SO AWESOME. It's a conference for LGBTQIA teens and such. There are three workshop periods and 40 different workshops to choose in each. It was so wonderful to just be there and meet new people. I was so nervous though, I didn't get any names. I smack myself in the head for that because I really wanted to get to know a few more people better. I just hope they're coming back tomorrow. I'm waking up at 6 again tomorrow to go again, and I won't be back until 9-ish.

On a separate note, a couple of weird things have been happening to me. I'm the kind of person who partially believes in the supernatural. Like, not really, but when weird things happen to me I'm like"hm, this is pretty cool, maybe it means something." Like, I get deja vu at least once a week, and always consider it. One event that happened was at choir on Monday. We had just finished rehearsing a song, and were transitioning to another. We got about a 15 second break to switch songs. So there was some chatter as we ruffled through papers to get to the next song. While I'm doing this, I hear a sudden, sharp, and short call "Chelsea!" I jerk my head up at stare at the direction it came from, a little bit to the left of the teacher's desk but not quite at the door. I looked around the rows in front of my (i'm in the back row) expecting some upturned face. Seeing no one I still keep my eyes pinned to the spot. No one else seemed to have heard the call but me, although I heard it as if it was a quite audible yell. The room was quieted by Mr. Noyes, and we began our next piece, but I didn't move my eyes from the spot. Eventually I shook it off and got joined the rest of my choir singing halfway through the song.

Event two happened just today. It wasn't an event really, but just a strange coincidence. In the last workshop I went to there was a girl there. I girl who I recognized quite clearly. She captivated my gaze throughout the workshop. She spoke often, although not as I would expect her to. I had half a mind to ask her (after the workshop) if she was adopted, and if she was born in South Carolina. However, how odd would that be? Being approached by a stranger to be asked if you were adopted. It was nice to see a face though, be it long lost sister or not. She said during the course of the workshop that she had a twin brother, so I doubt that my colorful imaginings have any base in truth. It was a fun day dream. Or not so fun. If she really was Em's long lost sister I don't know if she'd want to know.

For today:
Good things: daydreams and trans boys
Lesser things: not getting names and numbers and missed zanda don't

if you could forget anything that ever happened in your life, or reverse anything that happened that was caused directly by you, what would you change?

uhm. I don't think I have enough foresight or hindsight to make that judgement.

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Physics Phail

It's CAPT week, so a bunch of the periods are shortened while one is extending. Today I was suck with extended double lab AP Physics. o.o Surprisingly though, with about three hours of class time we did less physics than any other time. 

There are only five girls in our class, so we devised a secret plan. Today we showed up dressed like guys and acted like them for the whole period. That distracted the class for most of the period, and we ended up watching "The Bromance is Gone" on youtube and other "manly" things. Also Matt brought bagels. So, that was the first period. Then later that day (because the schedule is so weird) we met up again for our second class of the day, the usual lab period. We actually did physics then, or attempted to. This is where things messed up. We're just finishing up Quantum Mechanic, and Quantum Electrodynamics... you'd think I'd be able to go back to 41 and do some simple projectile motion and friction right? Wrong.

As part of the AP test, there's stuff from last year on it, basic stuff like forces and energy. We got a review packet and had to work on a few problems. I don't know what it was, but I completely blanked. I drew the picture, set it up, and suddenly all physics equations and theories rushed out of my head. To make it worse, everyone else in the class completely got it. And so they should! This is your basic box-on-an-incline problem. And, because the rest of the class got it right easily. we didn't spend much time in class going over the questions. I talked to Heiden after class and he explained it easily, and I get it now. It is worrying though, how quickly I can forget. But it is understandable. We haven't done that kind of stuff in half a year, and I didn't take the final exam last year. My brain was kinda wiped clean after this Summer. I'm really worried to find out what other stuff I've lost in the process...

Accepted!

I got my first college acceptance today!

Clark University! It was my safety, and I expected to get in, but i'm still really excited. I also got a really nice scholarship to go with it- $15,000 per year. ^.^

I'm excited also because Clark had said on its website that we would hear "by April 1st." All my other schools also say that. If I got this one this early, are the more letters floating around in the near future for me?

MoMA

Yesterday, my AP Literature class went to the Museum of Modern Art. Don't ask me why an English class went to an art museum, i'm still trying to figure it out! But anyway, I had a really great time. It was rainy and snowy, and we only got a few hours in the museum, but it was awesome. We had a tour which, like most tours, was long and boring and unnecessary, and then we had an hour or two to explore on our own. There were so many cool pieces, that I can hardly list them all. Some of my favorites were "The Landscape" by Jean Metzinger,  some stuff by Kandinsky, and this one other piece which I can't identify the artist.

We saw the Tim Burton exhibit that was just beyond awesome. Photos weren't allowed inside the exhibit, but just for an idea of what it was like, this is what the entrance to the place looked like:



I also got to spend a lot of time with my friends, mostly Brigitta, Allie, Linjia and Lindsey. One of my new year's resolutions this year was to get closer to my friends individually, and just get closer in general. I think that's certainly going well. On the train ride back the windows were fogging up, so we played literary pictionary. =D We drew things from the books we had read over the years and the others tried to guess the title. It was pretty much my best train ride ever. We played it for a good half hour, and I think we just disturbed a few of our car-mates by screaming "OMG.., its.. its... guild-.. rose--ROSENCRANTZ AND GUILDENSTERN ARE DEAD!!"

Same old

Vacation is coming to an end, and I can say i've done a lot of nothing. And for once, that's totally ok with me. I did lots of artwork, did all my homework, and watched a lot of olympics. And I'm very content. Not to say i'm complacent to stay in this lifestyle forever. I'm thoroughly looking forward to having a schedule, and things to do and see, starting back with school on Monday. I'm excited for the True Colors conference, and for hearing back from schools with (hopefully) good news in the next month. Set crew also starts soon, I believe. It'll be fun.

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Would you be freaked out if when we're in bed together, I licked your nose? Just nonchalantly.

I'd consider it payback for me using you as a pillow for a week.

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who do you think will be by your side through college?

Out of my friends? I don't think anyone really. But I'd definitely want them to prove me wrong.

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新年快乐, 恭喜你!

Xin nian kuai le! Gong xi ni!
Happy New Year! Congratulations!
(sheen-knee-ahn kwai-luh, gong-she-knee)

So I'm taking Chinese this year, and I love it so much! I took Spanish for the first 3 years of high. But really wanted to take Chinese since the program started my sophmore year. I don't regret not taking Chinese though. I made a lot of friends through Spanish class, and can speak it pretty fluently so it was worth it. But Chinese is so much fun! It's so interesting and I just love the culture. On that note, tomorrow is the Chinese New Year and I'll do my best to celebrate the Year of the Tiger along with the usual Valentines Day. I did get a pretty cool 红包(hong bao) from my teacher, 王老师 (Wang laoshi). It's a red envelope that you apparently put under your pillow then open on the New Year. It'll be fun. ^.^

Here's a new year song that Wang laoshi made us learn. Song

Sing me a lullaby, a love song, a requiem.

In my choir, FCCC, we're singing this song called "Sing Me to Heaven." It's so beautiful, but I only just now got the meaning of the lyrics. Here's the song "Sing Me to Heaven" and the Lyrics. Like the stages of life through song; comfort me, a lullaby; love me, a love song; sing me to heaven, a requiem.

I love choir music, I really do. Singing is honestly my favorite thing to do. I love being able to express myself though music, and getting really involved in a piece. I don't like solos though, it's just too nerve-wracking. When I want to sing, I want to be loving it, not worried i'm a little off or not. Being in a choir gives me that freedom while still making me work hard to hone my voice. I don't think i'll ever find a choir program just like the FCCC. Now that I think about it, i've given literally half my life to the choir, and i've adored every moment of it. There were perhaps one or two times over the 8 years when I didn't enjoy being at rehearsal. We are given so many amazing opportunities, the whole program is just so beautiful. I'm going to miss my choir so much in college.

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If you could ask God one question what would it be?

How is she?

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What's one thing you own that you should probably throw away, but never will?

I have all of my old school binders in a box in my closet. Every year I think "maybe i'll need to look back on this someday," but never do. It's so hard to get rid of all the hard work. It's like a physical representation of all the work I put in. It dates back to 6th grade. Previous to that I have select pieces in boxes for each year, but since 6th grade I've basically kept everything.

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Updates

I really don't have anything too interesting to say today. I've been busy as usual. I had my last Broadway choir concert yesterday, and had a blast completely rocking out in the back row to the Bye Bye Birdie songs, and I really had a great time. My mom was away this weekend in vermont celebrating her 50th birthday 2 years late with a bunch of her friends, so there was no one to record the concert, but I wish there was. I would have thoroughly embarrassed myself, and loved every minute of it. Speaking of my mom being away, it was sometimes quite horrible. My Dad is just....not even. We got into a couple screaming fits, as usual, but normally I just consent not to talk to him at all. It's so much easier that way. He's just impossible, really.
My mom brought me back Moose Plop from Vermont. =D Its marshmallows covered in chocolate to look like moose poop. It's delish.
I can't believe that vacation is only a week away, and Valentine's day/Chinese New Year as well are on the 14th. My plan is to get roses for a certain fabulous someone who did the same for me, and to maybe have a party. Emily might come down too. It's all in the planning stages, but I'm looking forward to a good vacation.
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SICK

Bleh. I hate being sick. The whole weekend I was sick and now 2 days of school as well. Bronchitis + the asthma I'm normally plagued with. =p I'm getting better although the pesky hacking cough remains. What I hate most about getting sick is being secluded from school. I feel like I'm missing so much- and not just schoolwork! Did we hear about internships, superlatives? what's the latest news on the play? is our english paper still due friday? and what's this about a field trip to the MoMA? what do I need to know about the eighth grade presentation on Thursday? SO much I'm missing!

On the bright side I read HP & The Deathly Hallows again. It was like reading it for the first time because, admittedly, the last time I read it was in Japan when it first came out in 2007. Tisk tisk, such a bad fan. I actually cried a bunch of times while reading it. That's new for me. I don't usually cry when reading books, except for that time a few months ago when I read The Five People You Meet In Heaven in tears straight through for three hours.
Harry Potter has such a wonderfully exciting ending to it, if you haven't read the last book I suggest you do. But not the epilogue. That was just a sad excuse.

Wow, how quickly I can get off-topic without a Thesis-paragraph-topic sentence- body paragraph-closing sentence to guide me. In the end that system makes sense but it truly is lifeless.

Besides being sick and reading Harry potter, I've learned that the play is going to be The Music Man. (eh.) Not what I would have personally chosen as my senior year musical but... we'll see.

Baby Chelsea

I've been taking a trip down memory lane recently - my mom has started to go through pictures to put in my senior ad for the yearbook. She's been pulling out albums and boxes all week. The baby pictures especially are very strange to me. It's like...that's me...but not me because I don't even remember it. Apparently I pet a cow. And there's photo documentation. I've also been to Vermont. It's so strange, that I can't even remember these things that, in the photograph, i look so completely engrossed by. I'm looking at this little cherub face with wide eyes gazing up in amazement at some new discovery, but I, the me now, can't place the memory at all.

I sure looked happy, that's all I know.
Now some baby pictures for awing.

Note that I used to be blonde. Like BLONDE blonde.

The First Clue

The Spring Musical has begun! And, as always, I'm keeping on top of the clues to what the show could be. The first clue was released today: "

This year's spring musical play won the Tony Award for Best Musical"

These are all the shows that have ever won the Tony Award for best musical. I highlighted the ones that I, knowing franny, expect to be in the running. An inside source whose name I cannot reveal hinted that I might just be correct in my assumptions. If i assume this person to be trustworthy, I just narrowed it down to 21 musicals on the first clue. Not to toot my own horn, but go me!

Kiss Me, Kate *

South Pacific*

Guys and Dolls

The king and i

Wonderful town

Kismet

The pajama game

Damn Yankees

My fair lady

The music man

Redhead

The sound of music*

Fiorello!

How to suceeed in buisnes…

A funny thing happened on the way to the forum

Hello dolly!

Fiddler on the roof

Man of la mancha

Cabaret

Hallelujah, baby!

1776

Applause

Company

2 gentlemen of Verona

A little night music

Raisin

42^nd street 

Byebye birdie

The wiz

A chorus line

Annie *

Aint misbehavin

Sweeney todd 

Evita

Nine

Cats

La cage aux folles

Big river

The mystery of Edwin drood

Les miserables

The phantom of the opera*

Jerome robbin;s broadway

City of angels

The will rogers follies

crazy for you

kiss of spider woman

passion

sunset boulevard

rent

titanic

the lion king

fosse

contact

the producers

thoroughly modern millie*

hairspray

avenue Q

spamalot

jersey boys

spring awakening

in the heights

billy elliot

EDIT: The ones with stars I have extra confidence on for some reason. We'll have to wait and see. 

Artwork

You can find some of my artwork on my DeviantArt page here. Click the "gallery" button to view all of my work.

Although, a lot of it is still on the school computer. I need to get my USB and transfer the photos over here so I can put them up.

Secrets

For you few dedicated followers out there, I have some good/bad news which may or may not be a surprise to you. 

Basically, the past few weeks have been horrible for me. Everything sort of hit me at once and I've been on a downward spiral since then. There's been just way too much stress for me to handle, too many things that I find wrong with myself, and not enough confidence to pull myself together. I starting doing things I swore I would never do... delving into self-harm, slight substance abuse. Things completely uncharacteristic of me. Even though it may not have seemed so (I am sadly an excellent faker) I shut myself off to everyone, even my closest friends. 

Thanks to a few loving friends, and the support of my family, I'm trying to move away from all of this. Just this Monday I confided in a friend, hoping my secret would be safe. On Wednesday my mom told me there had been a call home from guidance: she told. On Thursday, I sat in the psychology room at school; unresponsive and refusing to open up. later that day, whole family found out even more information, and completely flipped. I've felt so horribly guilty. I didn't mean for all of this to happen, and I didn't want such wide-spread alarm. So today my whole family has been on edge, my mom is constantly checking in with me and I have a scheduled "doctor's appointment" on Tuesday. A fancy name for a shrink. I don't think they help at all. Look at the precedents...they sure helped. At $275 for 45 minutes, I feel too rushed. How the hell can you fit a whole life into three quarters of an hour.

Anyway, I digress. The bottom line is, I'm going through some rough stuff now, so if I'm not acting myself, I'm sorry. I love all of you and I hope you understand. 

Hot Tranny mess

As Emma would say, I'm a hot tranny mess.

In other news, I really want to see this movie (To Save A Life), but I honestly don't know if I could make it through. I can smell disaster. 

Restless

Sitting at home, I just want to DO something. I can get so restless. I have an urge to do something different, just to see if it'll make anything feel any different. Will it change anything? And if it does change something, can I keep it up?

This can be good and bad. Lately it's been bad. We'll see how this goes.

A Pickle for Your Thoughts

My day consisted of this:

Waking up at 10 to pick up my dad after he dropped his car off at the shop, studying briefly, going out to dinner with my sister and dad, washing my car, doing art for the rest of the day, and now i'm here at a new babysitting job eating chinese take-out and trying to decode the family though their various things around the house. Have you ever done that while over someone's house? This family really really loves their daughter, Catharine. Makes sense, they're first-time parents and she's their only child. She's also adorable. That helps too.


It was nice to go out to lunch with my dad and sister. 1. we never go out to eat in general, and 2. I never usually spend time with those two. Usually its me mom and sarah, or john dad and me, or john and me, or me and mom, or mom dad and me. With a family of 5, there's a lot you can do. The title of this post comes from today at Archie Moores, where my sister requested for her pickle that was supposed to come with her kid's meal but didn't.

Although my level of studying for the day could have been greater, I got a few art pieces together. Sort of. I did a pastel drawing of my friend Brigitta at her Masquerade Ball birthday party. The worst thing about drawing your friends is that if there's anything wrong with your drawing you'll notice right away. I feel kinda bad, because my picture-Brigitta looks like she ate one too many twinkies. I also did this watercolor drawing with the watercolor pencils and paintbrush that my other friend Emma gave to me i think 2 years ago. I never really got the hang of them until just today. Maybe when I ge home i'll post what I've got so far.

Question of the Day: Have you ever re-discovered something you thought you'd

Tufts Interview Success!

I went on my first Alumni interview today. It's totally different from an interview on campus, and frankly, I liked it sooo much better! I was actually able to relate to my interviewer, and we didn't have any time constraints. I was really lucky, my interviewer was a woman of Chinese descent, so we spent a lot of time talking about my interest in Chinese and in Asian culture in general. It know it went really well, because I want to go back to talk with her some more! Our conversation was engaging.

However... I did make her cry. Is that a bad or good thing? She asked me what I was most proud of in my life, and I brought up the dinner I planned for Emma, and I of course explained the circumstances. In the end, it ended up alright.

If you want more info on the dinner let me know.

Starting Off

The page is for memories, for moments, for figuring things out. I wanted to start a blog as a sort of online diary, since my plan to keep a print journal has had less than average success.

I'll start off with some good news for today, I'm in AP Studio Art, and I've finally decided on a concentration. We have to complete 12 pieces of a concentration, which is artwork around a specific subject, and 12 pieces of breath, any extra pieces, for the AP exam in April. I'm almost done with my breath, but only started today on my concentration. I'm going to be exploring moments of rebirth in our lives: realizations, epiphanies, sudden tragedies that change perspective, new hope. It's a personal subject to me so fingers crossed that everything goes well! (Especially with 12 art pieces to complete in only 4 months!)