Baby Chelsea

I've been taking a trip down memory lane recently - my mom has started to go through pictures to put in my senior ad for the yearbook. She's been pulling out albums and boxes all week. The baby pictures especially are very strange to me. It's like...that's me...but not me because I don't even remember it. Apparently I pet a cow. And there's photo documentation. I've also been to Vermont. It's so strange, that I can't even remember these things that, in the photograph, i look so completely engrossed by. I'm looking at this little cherub face with wide eyes gazing up in amazement at some new discovery, but I, the me now, can't place the memory at all.

I sure looked happy, that's all I know.
Now some baby pictures for awing.

Note that I used to be blonde. Like BLONDE blonde.

The First Clue

The Spring Musical has begun! And, as always, I'm keeping on top of the clues to what the show could be. The first clue was released today: "

This year's spring musical play won the Tony Award for Best Musical"

These are all the shows that have ever won the Tony Award for best musical. I highlighted the ones that I, knowing franny, expect to be in the running. An inside source whose name I cannot reveal hinted that I might just be correct in my assumptions. If i assume this person to be trustworthy, I just narrowed it down to 21 musicals on the first clue. Not to toot my own horn, but go me!

Kiss Me, Kate *

South Pacific*

Guys and Dolls

The king and i

Wonderful town

Kismet

The pajama game

Damn Yankees

My fair lady

The music man

Redhead

The sound of music*

Fiorello!

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Hello dolly!

Fiddler on the roof

Man of la mancha

Cabaret

Hallelujah, baby!

1776

Applause

Company

2 gentlemen of Verona

A little night music

Raisin

42^nd street 

Byebye birdie

The wiz

A chorus line

Annie *

Aint misbehavin

Sweeney todd 

Evita

Nine

Cats

La cage aux folles

Big river

The mystery of Edwin drood

Les miserables

The phantom of the opera*

Jerome robbin;s broadway

City of angels

The will rogers follies

crazy for you

kiss of spider woman

passion

sunset boulevard

rent

titanic

the lion king

fosse

contact

the producers

thoroughly modern millie*

hairspray

avenue Q

spamalot

jersey boys

spring awakening

in the heights

billy elliot

EDIT: The ones with stars I have extra confidence on for some reason. We'll have to wait and see. 

Artwork

You can find some of my artwork on my DeviantArt page here. Click the "gallery" button to view all of my work.

Although, a lot of it is still on the school computer. I need to get my USB and transfer the photos over here so I can put them up.

Secrets

For you few dedicated followers out there, I have some good/bad news which may or may not be a surprise to you. 

Basically, the past few weeks have been horrible for me. Everything sort of hit me at once and I've been on a downward spiral since then. There's been just way too much stress for me to handle, too many things that I find wrong with myself, and not enough confidence to pull myself together. I starting doing things I swore I would never do... delving into self-harm, slight substance abuse. Things completely uncharacteristic of me. Even though it may not have seemed so (I am sadly an excellent faker) I shut myself off to everyone, even my closest friends. 

Thanks to a few loving friends, and the support of my family, I'm trying to move away from all of this. Just this Monday I confided in a friend, hoping my secret would be safe. On Wednesday my mom told me there had been a call home from guidance: she told. On Thursday, I sat in the psychology room at school; unresponsive and refusing to open up. later that day, whole family found out even more information, and completely flipped. I've felt so horribly guilty. I didn't mean for all of this to happen, and I didn't want such wide-spread alarm. So today my whole family has been on edge, my mom is constantly checking in with me and I have a scheduled "doctor's appointment" on Tuesday. A fancy name for a shrink. I don't think they help at all. Look at the precedents...they sure helped. At $275 for 45 minutes, I feel too rushed. How the hell can you fit a whole life into three quarters of an hour.

Anyway, I digress. The bottom line is, I'm going through some rough stuff now, so if I'm not acting myself, I'm sorry. I love all of you and I hope you understand. 

Hot Tranny mess

As Emma would say, I'm a hot tranny mess.

In other news, I really want to see this movie (To Save A Life), but I honestly don't know if I could make it through. I can smell disaster. 

Restless

Sitting at home, I just want to DO something. I can get so restless. I have an urge to do something different, just to see if it'll make anything feel any different. Will it change anything? And if it does change something, can I keep it up?

This can be good and bad. Lately it's been bad. We'll see how this goes.

A Pickle for Your Thoughts

My day consisted of this:

Waking up at 10 to pick up my dad after he dropped his car off at the shop, studying briefly, going out to dinner with my sister and dad, washing my car, doing art for the rest of the day, and now i'm here at a new babysitting job eating chinese take-out and trying to decode the family though their various things around the house. Have you ever done that while over someone's house? This family really really loves their daughter, Catharine. Makes sense, they're first-time parents and she's their only child. She's also adorable. That helps too.


It was nice to go out to lunch with my dad and sister. 1. we never go out to eat in general, and 2. I never usually spend time with those two. Usually its me mom and sarah, or john dad and me, or john and me, or me and mom, or mom dad and me. With a family of 5, there's a lot you can do. The title of this post comes from today at Archie Moores, where my sister requested for her pickle that was supposed to come with her kid's meal but didn't.

Although my level of studying for the day could have been greater, I got a few art pieces together. Sort of. I did a pastel drawing of my friend Brigitta at her Masquerade Ball birthday party. The worst thing about drawing your friends is that if there's anything wrong with your drawing you'll notice right away. I feel kinda bad, because my picture-Brigitta looks like she ate one too many twinkies. I also did this watercolor drawing with the watercolor pencils and paintbrush that my other friend Emma gave to me i think 2 years ago. I never really got the hang of them until just today. Maybe when I ge home i'll post what I've got so far.

Question of the Day: Have you ever re-discovered something you thought you'd

Tufts Interview Success!

I went on my first Alumni interview today. It's totally different from an interview on campus, and frankly, I liked it sooo much better! I was actually able to relate to my interviewer, and we didn't have any time constraints. I was really lucky, my interviewer was a woman of Chinese descent, so we spent a lot of time talking about my interest in Chinese and in Asian culture in general. It know it went really well, because I want to go back to talk with her some more! Our conversation was engaging.

However... I did make her cry. Is that a bad or good thing? She asked me what I was most proud of in my life, and I brought up the dinner I planned for Emma, and I of course explained the circumstances. In the end, it ended up alright.

If you want more info on the dinner let me know.

Starting Off

The page is for memories, for moments, for figuring things out. I wanted to start a blog as a sort of online diary, since my plan to keep a print journal has had less than average success.

I'll start off with some good news for today, I'm in AP Studio Art, and I've finally decided on a concentration. We have to complete 12 pieces of a concentration, which is artwork around a specific subject, and 12 pieces of breath, any extra pieces, for the AP exam in April. I'm almost done with my breath, but only started today on my concentration. I'm going to be exploring moments of rebirth in our lives: realizations, epiphanies, sudden tragedies that change perspective, new hope. It's a personal subject to me so fingers crossed that everything goes well! (Especially with 12 art pieces to complete in only 4 months!)